Meditations on Love

For my Soul Feat, I decided to choose something -- some quote, or poem, or aspect of human relationships -- upon which to meditate for each day of the challenge. I chose my something on each morning and made a conscious effort to bring my mind back around to it throughout the day, and I was surprised that whatever I was thinking over usually ended up having some bearing on the events of my day. I won't try to determine the direction of the cause and effect relationship there, but either way, setting these intentions in the morning have definitely brought more mindfulness to my days.
It came at the right time, too, because I've been going through some difficult relationship stuff, all of which culminated in a series of sometimes sad and sometimes painful exchanges and situations over the past week. So I needed some loving thoughts to dwell on pretty badly.
The meditation I've chosen for the final day of this challenge comes from one of my favorite poems, 'The More Loving One' by W. H. Auden. Here's the poem:

Looking up at the stars, I know quite well
That, for all they care, I can go to hell,
But on earth indifference is the least
We have to dread from man or beast.
How should we like it were stars to burn
With a passion for us we could not return?
If equal affections cannot be,
Let the more loving one be me.
Admirer as I think I am
Of stars that do not give a damn,
I cannot, now I see them, say
I missed one terribly all day.
Were all stars to disappear or die,
I should learn to look at an empty sky
And feel its total dark sublime,
Though this might take me a little time.

I first read this poem five years ago and thought: that is insane. Who wants to be the more loving one in a relationship?! Who wants to feel for someone what they will never feel back?
But over the last few years I have started to understand this sentiment a little more. And especially lately I've decided that it's an admirable goal in all relationships, whether romances or friendships or simply acquaintances, to try to be the more loving one. If the love isn't returned, the act of loving still benefits you and feeds your own soul. If the love is returned, bonus.


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